Taught as we were then
to end every
prayer with an amen, children caught in this
troubling ritual, trembling ever since—
against memory
with lips transgressing father’s tradition
we break tradition
and split memory
in our fractured assembly, working since
their theft to recover parts we lost then—
a liturgy, this
attrition of his, with knees every
(k)night’s grin bent, we accepted every
sliver of moonlight heaven sent when this
faith he fed us then
made of tradition
a cure for innocence, forgiving since
a good memory
even when bad fiction, is memory
still, a time-bomb ticking inside kids since
it’s our tradition
to spend every
night greeting with terror what victims then
realize is this
thing we all hide, this
cancer feasting, then
apologizing for its every
bite, what ill hearts vomit when memory
takes that tradition
and eats guilt’s gluttonous bounty, filled since
emptying us, since
even tradition
needs to be bled and wiped clean, memory
climbing from beneath silence cries out, this
demon every
child knows by name erupts once provoked, then
birthing itself, collects from memory
its debt, this trauma his love’s cost in this
house where bills become loss, where hurt lived then.