The melancholic beauty of sobriety
timed to coincide with first light
has no reservation, makes no hesitation,
to pierce wildly a wedding night’s
sanctity with a thousand burning knives, as if
sanity’s flight were denied its
acknowledgment to abide doubt’s comforting glance
when epiphany danced into
the bride’s mind to slight her future its rightful peace,
uncertainty the constant price
demanded of a wife released from hostage bonds
into the hoarfrost sigh of dawn’s
chilling arms, to find her husband gone, worse that he
had never been, and their pure love
never was—that truth is something to consider
before covenanting with men,
their fictions dangerous, making each a stranger
and stranger still, that luminous
thrill of letting them take precious liberties in
the faithless and filth-filled bathroom
of an after-hours party, her cotton-mouthed cries
rising with all the thundering
reality of an ancient sun dying to
realize no spell had been cast,
and that magic runs from substance as a frightened
girl does from someone worth letting
in—him—the one chance, the one man, the prince in her
solitude she sought to summon,
gone by morning, departing from her warm yearning
as summer’s last sand does, silent
and tiptoeing from a saturated shore, her
heart the realm where resentment sighs
like a truant tide passing under the squinting
eye of an ivory-thighed moon
violent midnight poaches, darkness consuming
life’s fragile miracle like an
incunabulum Old Testament torn open,
a prayer left unspoken because
a broken charm’s so hard to bear, her self-loathing
the sweating moment where desire
and destiny dare to battle, to feast on fear
as they meet to trample the soul’s
delicate lair, that tight cavern where the bride waits
without notice to bare what her
loneliness caresses: a fertile silence where
flesh tears under the crushing weight
of a single tear, its kiss terrible to taste.