To a Persian Banker—
i. First, Engraver
A latter-day Darius, daring me with
the darting of his sword-shaped tongue to plunge its
wetness into my own, claiming conquest where
his true meaning lacks depth, I fall for him just
before dawn, wanting in hindsight to have had
known ours was a future not at all intent
on staying long, and high on his grin I sit
profligate, late for work, uncertain if I
have spent all of my night, or invested in
a share of his morning, that so hopelessly
sobering, transcendentally disgusting
realization that accompanies but
never softens the piercing truth of these odd
situations, knowing only at the wrong
moment that tonight has become tomorrow,
below his window crawls a defiantly
silent chorus, otherwise usually
more riotous, Thursday’s cavalcade of tired
commuters furrows the asphalt’s brow, and to
its groaning traffic I bow, feeling haram,
moaning blasphemous praises as I make grand
obeisances to my latest conqueror’s
reluctant subjects, bent over his condo’s
balcony as my Persian king swallows me,
perverting the meaning of eating breakfast
in bed, a tyrant wicked as I am, though
we do not even speak the same language—we
share mouthfuls of head, eating each other out.
ii. Then, Effigy
Oiled curls fall like fighter jets and fold like palms
a zephyr blows in over the hard angles
of my fallen angel’s alabaster face,
sin’s flesh tinted in kisses his oasis
home laid on him to show the thirsty world his
beauty’s origin, tan colours his brow in
pale shadow my infidel words disavow
all prowess to know or tell, impossible
to describe is that low ridge along his thick
lips where proud Cupid lost his bow centuries
ago in a row between the gods over
whether the West or East had better mortals
to love, a contest arrogance lost, leaving
heathens, so-called, bathing in their breath my own
hero, and as above, not far below their
heavens where his sight commands the moon’s praises,
his soul glows with daybreak’s delicacy, eyes
of sugared almonds caramelizing bright
crystal, his soul’s candied windows tempting to
indecision all who seek to taste of their
tallow, his eyes are amber candles, soft and
fertile ground where burrows Gibreel’s lightning, such
is their piercing sweetness, flames flavouring my
modern prophet’s tears—the real spiritual
teacher—in a rich velvet secret I know
will consume me if I give in and permit
my infatuation with him to draw me
near to it, so below, my ink-mottled thumbs
ride wantonly along through his three-days’ beard,
feeling its precise stubble as my ears burn
to follow his guiding whispers, exotic
pitchers of rich, esoteric ecstasy
thickening and thicker as I coax his cheek
to my own, warm thumbs and thoughts tickling my most
erogenous zone—my wandering mind soft
putty in his sultriest mould, his alone.